Alright my brain is fried from too much input. Music, talking to people while working, and trying to work but instead procrastinating. So Ima write now. It clears my head and I have an idea I want to right about. Tonight we will be dealing with ideologies of sorts. See I'm a romantic. Yes and a guy. I like chick flicks, good love stories, and just giving into my emotions, being swept away by a tide of burning passion, mystery, and romance. So in a sense since I'm not athletic I get my runner's high fix from chick flicks and Twilight. Yes that is legit. Anyway. Today we are going to be arguing that giving in to the tide of romance is much better than complaining about it.

The first problem is what we will define as Person One. PO, haha kidding, Person One is the type that enjoys romance, but instead of succumbing and letting your mind wander and feel what the characters feel, she complains about them. How they are unrealistic, stupid, or clichéd. Though they might give an awww or two and enjoy some of the interactions and aspects of the characters this is overlooked by the fact they need to stop complaining. Honestly when reading a book like Twilight or watching the Notebook you cannot expect characters to be deep, rational, and completely admirable. The author/director is basing a large part of the character's personality and motivations of a highly specific idealized form of love, romantic love. Romantic love is not rational, is not even a good idea in real life, it self destructive, trust me. A character with tunnel vision or a one track mind is not going to be deep. Don't expect it

Person two pisses me off even more. Their problem is the same as Person One's they just have different expectations. This person usually gabs on about how movie wasn't artsy or deep. All the characters did was fall in love in a trite unrealistic way. THAT'S THE POINT!!! It's a story. Enjoy it!!! Like I said before romance doesn't really open ground for creativity. Person Two though similar to Person One might object as well that romantic love isn't tasteful or desirable that it is self destructive, and bad, and ruins relationships blah blah blah blah blah!!! We know this (the smart people in the world). That is why you shut up enjoy the film, and the next time you are in a relationship make sure its real but supplemented with romantic love. Cause I mean seriously romance rocks. Who doesn't want a little of it every now and then.

The point romance it is an impossibly amazing escape. Just turn your brain off and throw preconceived notions, judgments, and critiques out the door. With overly romantic films, book, and stories we should not expect a high level of artistry. I mean romantic love limits love so much, it is easily understood and a common emotion. If you want to write a good love story explore the truth depths of love. The type of love that keeps those crazy old people together for like sixty odd years. Love at first sight, sex after first night, is just not healthy and real. Love like that is not sustaining. But hey why not indulge every once in a while. I mean just let yourself go and enjoy the desolation the character feels at losing her loved one, or the fiery, passionate, heart aching love forbidden lovers share. Obviously if it become an obsession you have a problem, and you should consult someone not me. Honestly I don't know that much about love. I'm just into it so I know more than the average teenager or guy. And I'm not a girl thank you very much!!!!

Update

Okay peoples!!!! Whats up!!?? I like how I act that I have an actual audience to write to but I really don't. Anyway I'm done being angsty and questioning everything. I'm okay with Houghton for now, enjoying things, loving it. We will see what spring semester will hold with the Londoners leaving. I won't dwell on that transition now. I'm chilling, about to go to bed. Enjoying life. I finally put my life into a different perspective relating to my faith. It's hard to describe. Basically instead of thinking things are black and white I realized that my own personal motives can be the same as God's. That doing or not doing something cause I want to be that way, if its in line with God's will, is perfectly acceptable. I'm not cowering, avoiding the world. Nor am I resisting obeying God in some areas of my life because I think it's only his will, and it's only about following him. Which is sweet. I am finally becoming less legalistic, emotional, and fickle in my faith. It would take to long to describe. For me at least there are certain aspects of my faith I cannot completely rationalize and explain to people, just abstractly mention. So I'm gonnna go to bed, and tell a few of my friends about this so I actually have and audience....and feel less lame haha.
Dave

I Just Don't Know

After getting home from break and having a car ride full of discussion and contemplation about the Houghton college community I was really not happy with it. Life decided to be ironic when my friend texted me and said "I got into Houghton!!!" and I had to pretty much act happy, but it was via text so I was fine. The situation was just ironic. Don't get me wrong I love Houghton, well parts of it. I love my friends and alot of the people there, the tight knit community, the ability to grow and talk about my faith easily, the real care proffessors have for you, and of course ultimate frisbee and the team, but that is another story. I am just frustrated that I had to spend nearly my entire semester creating a balanced social life for myself. It took me forever to find the right friends, avoid cliques, and establishing deepers relationships. When I do half my social life falls apart because I know so many kids going to London next semester!! It just kind of sucks. I have a community that I love in some aspects, but I can't stand in others. Houghton seems to much like high school sometimes. What with all the clicks, and people being prone to being judgemental and not accepting in most cases. Of course not everyone is, but a general vibe of judgement or conservativeness is present sometimes. I went to college that no one else from my high school was going to to get away from my high school and all its tendencies because I hated it. Now I am in a community again that contains some of those tendencies more than secular schools. This is where another dilema arises in my mind. I am used to alot of freedom. Alot of people at secluar school are more chill than Houghton. I love that kind of community. I grew up in it without the relaxed unjudgmental side. I have considered switching schools like three times now. It just sucks because Houghton is such an amazing place sometimes, and I have amazing friends. It has a great degree and missions opportunities for me. Sometimes I want to run away from Houghton and just end up in a secular school. In reality I am overthinking this a little, and Houghton is a solid place. Yet I am keeping things open at this point. I am going to see how second semester goes. For one last point or struggle is my faith. I feel like I have to stay at Houghton or else I'll just lose my faith and be a drunk and a whore. The truth is I'm not going to turn away or ditch my faith, it's too much a part of my life. Yet I want more freedom at times. Other times I feel like Houghton is perfect and I'm growing there and when I'm in that growing in my faith phase my desire to go to a secular school seems worldly. So basically to sum this up I have all these social, legistic (school costs and degrees), and religious thoughts to consider. I want to explain the faith part more, but it is always been harder for me to rationalize the deepest thoughts of my faith to someone or people. At this point I just don't know.

First Legit Post

Alright, well I just set up my blogger legitimately. I subscribed in September, but haven't used it till now. I love writing, especially creative. Its so much fun, interesting, and a passion I guess. Problem is I never write in my free time. I'm one of those people who if they are uncertain about something, and don't think they are skilled at it they won't do it. So screw that!!! I'm going to write, and I'm going to do it regardless of my reservations. It is an amazing way to express myself personally, so I think it will be healthy and a sweet adventure. I have my blog containing quotes and alot of art cause I'm into it. For those of you who don't know me and end up subscribing to my blog I'll fill out the rest of my profile later. This is pretty much for people who know me though because honestly what random person is gonna read my blog. Anyway, I'm being really formal which is weird. I don't normally write like this, but I think its because of the mood I'm in. My mood very much effects my writing, especially if I feel creative. What you can expect out of this blog is musing about my own life, my friend's lives, life, my experiences, and my faith most likely. I will also probably write random tidbits or chapters of stories or idea for stories I have, and poetry as well. So those of you who know me my five minute poems will now be on here. I just realized I forgot paragraphs haha. Anyway I guess I just hope that I post here frequently enough because I'm terrible at keeping up on new things, and that you enjoy it and it enriches your life or understanding of me, and if we have one our friendship. Feel free to comment

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